Time for change?

I've been thinking.... TOTAL of one day. I want to cut my hair.... I want to make it like rapunzel-kind of wild layered cut where my neck is in the open and I wanna grow out my own haircolour. I also decided to save up and get that rose Marque on my back right below the "SNOWY" -- BLACK edged with some red.

Such a wave of passion and tons of emotions wild within me. Gna make the most of them.

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Don't stand still

I've recently discovered how much I've been missing in being somewhat content in my life. I had forgotten how it felt to feel happy and quite frankly the difference is terrifying. Sometimes you just gotta risk it all and get surprised. Even the process of just risking it is sometimes worth it. World gets a lot more colourful, I can tell.

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Just risk it sometimes and see how it goes... Don't stop and don't stand still in your life. There are a lot more things than you think that you can actually affect. You just mustn't give up!

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What did you risk? You may ask.... Well, I'm a sea of risking. I trust people. Sometimes it's rewarding, sometimes a lot less so and sometimes people set out to get you. Eventually, it may just come to someone calling you silly names to make you feel better for your mistakes. <3

Endurance (GoT mild spoiler alert)

I believe there is a limit to how much one can endure both physically and mentally. When this limit is crossed, a phase begins; for physically broken it is the phase of losing oneself and letting go of all you knew before, of all you ever loved. For the mentally broken it is another matter, for the mentally broken will first turn spiteful in their tearful wording, throwing threats and spiteful curses. For the mentally broken there is also the next phase, the second phase where you give up everything and throw your last hope away; give yourself to goddess' fragile arms and wish for the best. At this point.... You don't care anymore. It's over.

I wish I had killed Joffrey.

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Have you ever been pushed over these limits ?  If you watch Game of Thrones or if you have read the books, you'll know that Tyrion Lannister goes through the mental breakdown where Theon Greyjoy goes through the physical one. I believe them to be true. I believe this is what truly happens to people that are pushed over their limit of endurance. I have experienced the mental bit once as I was left by my ex. I'm just happy it didn't last for it is exhausting business... Despite Tyrion and Theon being fictional characters; I still feel sorry for both of them.

Please stop it....

Gods.... I hate it when people break promises. If you PROMISE something - keep it or don't promise anything at all. It's not that hard. Really. Because what you do when you break a promise is - you disappoint whoever you made that promise to - AND you will also have lied to that person. Do it multiple times and she or he will never trust you again.

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DON'T DO IT.

Sad but true

I know I've been slacking a lot in writing these blogs for the past month or so. I don't exactly know why. I'm kind of feeling sad at the moment after I watched this poem thing that someone had pasted on facebook: http://sfglobe.com/?id=637&src=share_fb_new_637

Yes.... You should watch it. It is very much true. Sad but true. Even though I don't think I'd find any more friends or loved ones by talking more to random people and asking directions. No. I've tried. Believe me. <--- Those famous words that I have to get back to  at some point.

Anyway, I will try continue my blog writing again. I have the entrance exams coming up and I also kind of want to get to gold and I have these people interested in me.... I'm a little confused. I just want back to London so I can chill.

LONDON - positively surprised

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I didn't know how to share this with you. I spent some 4,5 days in London just last week. I had amazing time. Amazing. These people I've known online for some seven years or something... they showed me around and took me EVERYWHERE. It was wonderful to be in company that knew where they were going and what sights were important and what could be seen from far away.

We even went to feed swans.... which was kind of crazy 'cause I've had this respectful fear of swans from child as I saw one try attack my brother. These ones.... I almost felt sorry for. Anyway the entire trip was enjoyable and I hope to go back soon. I miss my friends so much I could cry.... I even did some crazy stuff there.... Oh yeah and I decided I should probably write a little book about ALL the awkward stuff that has happened to me and people I know.... Brilliant idea! Thanks Dan!

I was overall positively surprised..... I loved it. London.

Power of Words

 They say that words can cut deeper than blade.

Just imagine this for a second. Imagine how easily you can turn anything around with just a few words. It's not just that you can hurt people in the negative sense, you can also discourage them, you can create unwillingness to perform and or you can just simply make one cry. Just say something awful.

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What else can you do with the power of words? Well, obviously the opposite: you can make one feel awesome, special, one of a kind. You can make this person feel amazing and loved. You can encourage and rally. You can push someone to their best performance just by offering kind words. How about that? Try it - I encourage you !  <3

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Try it...