Time for change?

I've been thinking.... TOTAL of one day. I want to cut my hair.... I want to make it like rapunzel-kind of wild layered cut where my neck is in the open and I wanna grow out my own haircolour. I also decided to save up and get that rose Marque on my back right below the "SNOWY" -- BLACK edged with some red.

Such a wave of passion and tons of emotions wild within me. Gna make the most of them.

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Don't stand still

I've recently discovered how much I've been missing in being somewhat content in my life. I had forgotten how it felt to feel happy and quite frankly the difference is terrifying. Sometimes you just gotta risk it all and get surprised. Even the process of just risking it is sometimes worth it. World gets a lot more colourful, I can tell.

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Just risk it sometimes and see how it goes... Don't stop and don't stand still in your life. There are a lot more things than you think that you can actually affect. You just mustn't give up!

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What did you risk? You may ask.... Well, I'm a sea of risking. I trust people. Sometimes it's rewarding, sometimes a lot less so and sometimes people set out to get you. Eventually, it may just come to someone calling you silly names to make you feel better for your mistakes. <3

Endurance (GoT mild spoiler alert)

I believe there is a limit to how much one can endure both physically and mentally. When this limit is crossed, a phase begins; for physically broken it is the phase of losing oneself and letting go of all you knew before, of all you ever loved. For the mentally broken it is another matter, for the mentally broken will first turn spiteful in their tearful wording, throwing threats and spiteful curses. For the mentally broken there is also the next phase, the second phase where you give up everything and throw your last hope away; give yourself to goddess' fragile arms and wish for the best. At this point.... You don't care anymore. It's over.

I wish I had killed Joffrey.

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Have you ever been pushed over these limits ?  If you watch Game of Thrones or if you have read the books, you'll know that Tyrion Lannister goes through the mental breakdown where Theon Greyjoy goes through the physical one. I believe them to be true. I believe this is what truly happens to people that are pushed over their limit of endurance. I have experienced the mental bit once as I was left by my ex. I'm just happy it didn't last for it is exhausting business... Despite Tyrion and Theon being fictional characters; I still feel sorry for both of them.

Please stop it....

Gods.... I hate it when people break promises. If you PROMISE something - keep it or don't promise anything at all. It's not that hard. Really. Because what you do when you break a promise is - you disappoint whoever you made that promise to - AND you will also have lied to that person. Do it multiple times and she or he will never trust you again.

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DON'T DO IT.

Sad but true

I know I've been slacking a lot in writing these blogs for the past month or so. I don't exactly know why. I'm kind of feeling sad at the moment after I watched this poem thing that someone had pasted on facebook: http://sfglobe.com/?id=637&src=share_fb_new_637

Yes.... You should watch it. It is very much true. Sad but true. Even though I don't think I'd find any more friends or loved ones by talking more to random people and asking directions. No. I've tried. Believe me. <--- Those famous words that I have to get back to  at some point.

Anyway, I will try continue my blog writing again. I have the entrance exams coming up and I also kind of want to get to gold and I have these people interested in me.... I'm a little confused. I just want back to London so I can chill.

LONDON - positively surprised

Hey...

I didn't know how to share this with you. I spent some 4,5 days in London just last week. I had amazing time. Amazing. These people I've known online for some seven years or something... they showed me around and took me EVERYWHERE. It was wonderful to be in company that knew where they were going and what sights were important and what could be seen from far away.

We even went to feed swans.... which was kind of crazy 'cause I've had this respectful fear of swans from child as I saw one try attack my brother. These ones.... I almost felt sorry for. Anyway the entire trip was enjoyable and I hope to go back soon. I miss my friends so much I could cry.... I even did some crazy stuff there.... Oh yeah and I decided I should probably write a little book about ALL the awkward stuff that has happened to me and people I know.... Brilliant idea! Thanks Dan!

I was overall positively surprised..... I loved it. London.

Power of Words

 They say that words can cut deeper than blade.

Just imagine this for a second. Imagine how easily you can turn anything around with just a few words. It's not just that you can hurt people in the negative sense, you can also discourage them, you can create unwillingness to perform and or you can just simply make one cry. Just say something awful.

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What else can you do with the power of words? Well, obviously the opposite: you can make one feel awesome, special, one of a kind. You can make this person feel amazing and loved. You can encourage and rally. You can push someone to their best performance just by offering kind words. How about that? Try it - I encourage you !  <3

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Try it...

Shattered glass

Sometimes.... Sometimes it's really difficult to get over things. Especially love. I don't say this now in the same context as before. No. I say this because I don't think a lot of people are actually capable of letting go of love. I don't mean it as letting go of the person they love - That everyone seems to be pretty capable of. No. I mean letting go of love for the person you left or who left you. It's like walking on broken glass when you see him/her or think about this person and wonder... What could have gone different ? Is there anything I can do or anything I SHOULD do ?

I don't know what to do about it. Maybe just let it be; leave it as it is. Let the love exist. It's not going anywhere. All you can do is push it deeper inside so it'll not be in the way... Right?

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Prejudices & Expectations

People.... Just don't do that.

If you form prejudices on ANYTHING; it might ruin the whole thing for you. It sort of partly happened to me with 300: RISE OF AN EMPIRE. I went to see a movie about Spartans like the first one was. And then the whole movie was actually all about Athenians and even though it was good and true to the 300 style... I missed something. Something important. I WAS NOT IN THE MOVIE as I should have been - only and solely because of my stupid - I'm not sure if I should call it prejudice but still..... I expected Spartans. Action was there. Heroes were there. 

<3 I'm sorry movie. <3

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So the lesson of the day is..... Don't HAVE EXPECTATIONS AND PREJUDICES. They ruin your life.

Stand by your choices

All the deadlines are met now... So FAR. I don't know if anyone reads this blog or if anyone does, then who... Kinda exciting in that sense. Either way I wanted to address this thing that I call sticking by your choices and opinions. If you make a choice; SAY you leave some one for example. STICK by it and don't make a hell out of that someone's life just because you think she doesn't have a heart. This same thing could be applied to so many other things.... 

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You choose a team to support - STICK BY IT AND don't betray the moment they're having a bad time in the league. Obviously, I'm going to press the matter of sticking by your choices because it also gives you confidence. I mean for example I've chosen to get to Uni and to become a teacher or basically get into a profession that comes with English language. Also, I've decided to become an author. I proceed in pursuing these goals and sticking by my choices - CHOICES that I made LONG AGO.

Ah man.... This life can be so hard. Emotions are so painfully difficult to leave behind or to let go.

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Pain

My gosh.... Why is it so damn painful to see couples... to know someone is looking for a girlfriend; just knowing that whoever he is looking for is not you. Why is it so painful to leave the life I've lead; though inconsistently, behind? Why is it so damn difficult to get over one's ex and yet it seems to be so damn much more easier for your ex? WHY? WHY ME?

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I feel like I'm in chains and in pain. Someone could come punch me unconscious and I might actually get amnesia and then I could applaud that someone as my friggin' hero. Too painful.... Maybe it is what keeps me from sleeping or getting anything done. I need to get a grip somehow... I used to have control. I used to be able to control my feelings to a point. I want that control back. I want the leash.

PROCRASTINATION

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA Why is it so difficult to start reading to an exam ? Why is it so difficult to start working on your homework on time? Why? MORE things I do not understand. Procrastination. How can someone be so organized that it doesn't affect him or her ? I'd like to know the secret.

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Some people claim it is easy.... Just schedule things and do them according to the schedule. I've tried. Really I've tried. I just cannot. If I schedule reading something and mark it in my calendar or something.... I will try to read but it just doesn't work. Either I get distracted OR I fall asleep on the book.  If anyone has any ideas on how to work on this; I'd like to hear. :)

New way of studying for an entrance exam ?

This is going to be an interesting experiment. I'm going to apply to universities... and I have plenty of entrance exams. Now here's the plan: I'm going to try to write a small summary or just anything about each chapter I read through. We'll see how it goes and if it stays better in my memory.

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NEED THE FULL CAPACITY OF MY BRAIN to get through these bloody exams. :D How to harness it? That's the question. I need to start sleeping at the very least. Secondly, I should exercise and I should write.... definitely. Find something to link everything to.... I so hope to pass.

Argumentation

So, this is my argumentation for school task.... Thought I'd put it here as well. :) I keep disagreeing and agreeing with it in turn. Also, I was so exhausted whilst writing it that I wrote "Evolvement" instead of "Evolution". Gonna get some minus out of that one. :(

Idioms, idiotic or pure evolution of language?

By Taija Solin - EKO

Idioms are central to the English language and should be expected in lingual proficiency. Thus using idioms is not a wrongful or needless usage of words. In Jacqueline Ambrose's article Why idioms are important to English language, Ambrose decides on the closer definition of idiom with the help of New Webster's Dictionary (1993): "A construction or expression having a meaning different from the literal one or not according to the usual patterns of the language". Naturally, a lot of people would judge idioms by this definition as a needlessly difficult way of expressing a simple thing. An English friend of mine said this about idioms: "they're sort of there, but they don't serve that much of a function in the language". I disagree. Idioms serve multiple diverse functions in the language. Obviously, there are a lot of other ways of diverting language but idioms are uniquely situational and cultural. They root in the people and the country. Also, communicating effectively with idioms shows you have a certain understanding of the language.

Idioms communicate on another deeper level of understanding and according to Jacqueline Ambrose "They transmit information about the speaker that might not be obvious." In other words due to the unique nature of idioms, neither their function in the language nor their meaning is always obvious. Like who would call their car "a lemon" without knowing it for an idiom? It does tell you it is something "sour" but not exactly anything about a car. How is something easy a piece of cake? Where does it tell about the easy part?

“Idioms are not only great fun, they also cast fresh light on the less rational workings of the human mind,” the guardian opens up smoothly. Imagine how boring it would be to know everything for hundred percent certainty. Imagine what the world would be like. There would be no point in literature past just one book since you would know the ending before you started it. There would not be things like deviations, irony and sarcasm to brighten our gray Mondays.

Idioms are important and they provide richness to the use of any language. When you attend an entrance exam, on a line concerning the study of languages, it is the first thing they test; whether you know your idioms or not. It is considered part of knowing the language and the culture that the language has been built around. One could argue idioms are rather useless up to a point, considering you can say the same thing so that everyone undoubtedly understands, but where would be the fun in that?

“As well as being illogical, idioms are idiotic.” states the guardian’s article The idiotic joys of idioms. They are like hidden nonsensical riddles that you can solve only if you know the answer in advance or if the context gives it away. Why use them then? Why complicate things by uttering nonsensical phrases that provide no logical clue whatsoever as to their meaning? Because language evolves and grows. It needs new ways of capturing attention, new ways of saying things and especially new ways of communicating the cultural background of the language. Where language keeps changing and shifting, new forms of communication arise. Idioms are part of everything.  “Idioms are pervasive. They are used in formal and informal speech, conversation and writing and are part of standard speech in business, education and the media.” Ambrose explains. In addition to this, non-native people who intend on working in an English-speaking country will be expected to know certain amount of idioms.

“The main point is that idioms and other stock expressions aren't peripheral language oddities – they are central to how we communicate.”(the guardian, 2009). The article discusses idioms as a consequential part of our everyday language. In conclusion idioms improve our everyday communication, whether it is formal or informal, academic or personal. Surely all this reflecting gives us the opportunity to review and admit idioms’ unquestionable and versatile role in our language.

Insomnia

Well.... I've been having a longer pause now due to insomnia. I've not been able to sleep at nights and to be honest I've barely slept overall. It's safe to say I've been EXHAUSTED.

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I want to make it up to you guys.... I managed to sleep a little last night so going to write today. I've had a very tiring week just now. Had a presentation to give and this argumentation to write for Thursday and all of this whilst struggling with my insomnia. I don't even know where it has come from. Am I stressed or something ? Maybe.

Usually I fall asleep the moment my head hits the pillow; now it has been taking HOURS. I've fallen asleep at 7AM and woken up at around 8 or 9AM. There is definitely something wrong. I can feel it. I mean hey...... it's like 3.30AM :( and I'm still not sleeping.... *sighs deep* I just want to sleep. I'll write about something else later... Now I gotta play some. :3 Caitlyn is ....... Freakishly relaxing to play.

Frozen 24th Birthday

Ding.... That's what they say in games when you level up.

Honestly, I never imagined my life past 23 years of age. Now I'm officially 24 and I feel as if life played a trick on me. Years vanished into this hazy mush of fading pictures and what remains is unrealistic nostalgia, all these new and old friends and.... me. I've changed and shifted over the years. Some may claim people do not change but I claim otherwise. 

Read, write, experience and feel.... all of these things make you grow.

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See who is there for you for real...

All of these things matter and when you make mistakes; which is kind of inevitable. Learn from them. What have I learnt from this past year? Since I turned 23? Hmmh....

I've learnt that life isn't even as simple as I thought it would be. I've learnt that some things just are not worth the trouble and one should learn to tell which things are and which ones aren't. By things I obviously mean relationships, goals and friendships. If it's worth it; don't let it go.

Don't be scared...

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Grasp life by its very neck and live it to the fullest....

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Let it go.... test your limits.... For there might just be magic in it.

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And lastly; Keep your family close.

They're always there for you first and foremost.

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Like my sister is for me.

A lot of Frozen things.... images..... what can I say; my nickname is Snowy and I like the movie. So my birthday theme for this year is Frozen. Frozen 24th birthday. Also.... this movie made me cry for I am a big sister and my sister is amazing. In fact it actually feels like she's taking care of me more than I am taking care of her which I kind of thought was the big sister's job.

Well...... I'm going to try to sleep some now... Enjoy my birthday! :)

 -Snowy-

Power of Penance

I discovered the best way to get things done today. If you're addicted to anything silly like playing League of Legends - use it to your advantage. First you have something you need to get done like for me it was cleaning. Second step is to get to your addiction; play games. Thirdly if you lose - do penance. If you lose - you clean. If you win - you get tea or something else. :) Works like a charm.

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Sure did for me....

Requiescat in pace

I don't understand people sometimes.... if ever.

Honestly, if you do something so idiotic as driving over like the cutest cat in the world; the least you can do is to go tell the owners what happened and apologise. They probably wouldn't forgive you but it's still the least you can do. My poor sister is wrecked and in pieces. Someone drove over her dearest cat today and didn't even have the balls to come tell about it in person. If he/she did it on purpose..... I honestly hope they rot in hell.

Just look at this....

Wasn't she just the cutest thing in the world? She actually even paid rent; she brought in living birds and mice and what not to teach us humans to hunt because she thought we couldn't do it for ourselves.

I just petted her yesterday and gave her something to eat. I can't believe she's gone. I still remember when I stayed in my sister's room after my trip to England and she just appeared to my feet and pushed my legs aside to make herself some room. Silly little thing !

Fiona wasn't my pet. She belonged to my sister and my parents. My family. Still it feels like a loss. Feels like she was part of that very family which is my own. She is the second pet I've lost. First one was Susu...... Cute little beagle girl. Makes me miss her too even more.

I really hope my sister pulls well through this one.... she's had hard enough life as it is and Fiona meant a lot to her. I'm hoping to lift her spirits with Henry on Thursday. We'll probably not succeed but we'll try at least.

If nothing else; at least Fiona had the best life a cat can have. Warm and lovely place to sleep at next to my sister, freedom to her heart's content to do whatever she pleased..... roaming around and hunting birds and mice. She got food when she needed and she even had Nappe to protect her when neighbour's cat was being mean. And she had my sister and my family; she had Love.

Anyway.... Rest in peace little one.

Sunday

Well let's start with my day; It was a..... a Sunday. A rainy Sunday. I woke up around 7.30-8 AM to dress up for hunting, then dad picked me up and we went to the forest with Nappe (beagle). Dad saw a hare; twice actually. I never glimpsed any. :C

Either way I had pretty decent time despite my toes and fingers freezing most of the time. Especially when dad found the poor wounded toad. Seems Nappe saved its life for one in barking and scaring its assailant away, then dad for picking it up and taking it with us. The hibernation wore off and the first thing it did was crawl across the table and drop on its head on the floor. Well, he's alive......

I don't understand what is the problem with these people; how can toads be terrifying to anyone? I can understand snakes or spiders or even sharks and moose because these are actually dangerous. I can even understand someone being afraid of yellow frogs but toads don't harm you. :C 

Leave them be!

Even though this one looks kinda ferocious !

Slack ---- BUT

I've been slacking lately and I'm sorry for that. Been kind of unwell and also been playing a lot. Anyways to the subject at hand; I've been thinking a lot about speaking to people, like how to do it proper and where you can pretty much detect flaws in speech or hidden meanings or just pure bullshit.

I've come to the conclusion that the words IF and BUT are the worst ones. Let's first get to that "BUT". If you compliment someone and then say "BUT"; it pretty much nullifies everything you said before the word.

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Consequently, I've started to completely ignore everything that comes after the word. If you need to add a "BUT"; then leave whatever you just said unsaid.

Useless words especially in the wrong places...

Gonna do IF later. :)

Sugarcoating all around

Wow..... Sometimes it really hurts to hear some things, but you know what? It hurts even worse and makes you mad to hear them sugarcoated. It's not even just a truth you may be telling, it just might be something that you think MIGHT offend someone so you add this nice stuff to it to make it sound "better".

 

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BUT NOT BOYFRIENDS LOL :DDDDDD

 
Sometimes people just realise when you're "saying something hidden" and how exactly you mean it...

When your story is like this...

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Basically what I am saying is not to sugarcoat obvious things. It's okay to not bluntly say that someone's dress is downright ugly or to not bluntly inform that you're standing someone up for someone else or for a game for that matter. Rather if you have a good reason to do something; or an emotional reason or not at all good reason but you still want to do it; don't lie about it or sugarcoat it. It makes it worse to hear. :)

 

Abstract words

What exactly is it that measures these abstract words like love, good, evil, bad....  and so on? How can you know when a person is bad or good for that matter? Is it the way he talks, the way he walks or just generally his point of view towards life? Is it rudeness or indifference? You know; "bad people"  - all of them actually think they're all good and to them you're the bad one. So, who is right?

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Perhaps he just had a really bad day and was taking it out on you. It just means he cares about you; you were worthy enough object to take all of that feeling out and on your shoulders. Maybe he thinks you can handle it.

TO BE HONEST: I have come to the conclusion that purely "good" people do not exist. Seriously, if they do, they'd be freaks of nature. For good and evil both count as humanity. We are humans and we make mistakes and we do bad things. That's what forgiveness is for... At least I've never met anyone "pure", one without a dark side.

One such as....

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Oh, wait.... Tyrael has a dark side too.... Call it JUSTICE if you will.

Lady Fortune smiles - NOT

Honestly, how unlucky can one be? From promotion matches to 0 points in one streak with players like:
"oh I bought Syndra so I better practice her in ranked",
"OMG Kassadin is open - I BETTER PLAY IT EVEN THOUGH I DUNNO HOW",

"adc or afk", "I PLAY ASHE CUZ I GOT THE NEW SKIN"
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"oooooooh, let's go vs KATARINA with a squishy team and just one interrupt ! whee best idea evar!!!!"

Generally.... isn't there supposed to be some kind of balance? What actually defines luck? Is it so that you're in doing GREAT in some areas on some certain day and then AWFUL in others? How does it work? I'd like to know. Does it exist or is it some kind of KARMA thing?

There are plenty of things in this world that I do not understand. Luck is one of them, especially good luck. This rarely occurring, evasive beast barely ever leaves you with anything in between "good" and "bad". Then again is there anything in between? If everything goes "normally", shouldn't that be considered lucky too? Surely it is lucky to not be unlucky... Confusing.

Thought this appropriate.... <3

Love-Hate relationship towards Valentine's Day

First thing you have to understand is that I am all about love. I adore the sheer feeling of being in love and loving someone, feeling warm and fuzzy and all that. I LOVE IT.

Considering this, I think Valentine's day should be like my favourite day in the whole year. All about romantics; candle dinners, heart-shaped chocolates, roses and poetry. All about love.  The thing is, I've only ever been together with one person during Valentine's day. Every other relationship has collapsed right before it. A month before it to be exact. I don't know why; maybe I'm under some Valentine's day curse. It sucks though to be single on Valentine's day... Especially such a single as I am. One that doesn't like to go out drinking and "having fun" as they call it. One that prefers to socialise over internet, especially over games.

It is hard, really..... to see all those guys in town, with bouquets of roses on their arms. All the loving couples cuddling and kissing on the benches and in the bus. Makes my heart long for someone to hold, someone I could cuddle and kiss, someone I could spoil and give my love to. Someone I could try make the happiest person in the world.

What can I say? I'm a romantic.... I love letters and cards and little things. I love LOVE but I hate being alone with it. I mean.... Being alone. However, sometimes it is better to be alone than in a bad relationship; at least I've learnt that much by now. Besides.... there are people I love... my family and some others; all in different ways, so this day.... This Valentine's Day I own to them. I love you. <3

I wrote this in class as an assignment from a few given; a bit odd rhyming pairs. Thought it was appropriate for today! :D   Enjoy! <3

My sister has the cutest cat,
Today her cat caught a bat,
She brought it into the house,
Instead of her favourite mouse,
I'm much like her in some sense,
I take in things that make me tense...
I am forever the love fool,
If only once I could be cool,
Let the flames burn low,
Leave the embers to glow,
Give me tricks, maybe tips,
Please give me an obedient dog,
Instead of always the rude hog,
Please give me one....
One that always calls my phone,
One that never leaves me alone,
One that is honest, fair and funny,
I really don't care about the money...
Just give me one to always love,
Give me one I can call my dove,
One to satisfy needs more deep,
One to cuddle into and sleep,
It doesn't have to be a man,
Of women, I'm a great fan,
Just give me anyone for a start,
Just not one that much likes to fart,
If in search of perfection,
I'd like one to share my fire,
One to take care of desire,
Sigh at all these pretty boys,
Were I more evil....
I'd make them all my toys...

Happy Valentine's Day !

Addicted

.... Today I had a busy day. Another exam behind and got top grade for it. <3

What else have I done? I've been awfully tired, that's for certain. I was just going to say I don't know why, but I kind of do know... I've watched Chuck till the morning hours. Really bad idea on a school day. Well, at least it didn't seem to affect my exam. :)

I have this very bad tendency of getting addicted to things like series and books... If there's like this really intense spot in a book and I really really want to know what's gonna happen, I just simply cannot put it down. Same goes for series; I cannot stop myself from watching the next episode if there was a horribly intense cliffhanger at the end.

How do you know when to stop ?  Just STOP ? I honestly don't know. I have these special tactics where I either say "I'm gonna go sleep after this one." or "Oh, it's only 1AM, surely I can watch another. I'll go sleep at 2AM." and then I do the same with the next hour.... So, it doesn't work.

Any ideas?

Simple pleasures

There are grand pleasures in life, such that happen rare. Then there are the simple pleasures that some people wholly ignore instead of enjoying them.

Personally, I am all about these simple pleasures. I love little things done to me and the simple things like sensations and emotions. Probably one of my less sexual favourites would be when I go to sauna: the caressing warmth and the sweat slowly trickling down my skin.  Why does it always have to be something big......?

Why not enjoy if someone decides to treat you with a gift or some sweets ? Why not just lie down and let the feeling of receiving such kindness sweep right through you....?

Happiness is the truth

:)  Just to go back to the flaming thing once more...

I just had a game where we were some 4/16 in kills with fed Jarvan and Lucian and Morgana in opposing team (League of Legends players will know what I mean) and I was the only one with kills as Volibear top. Somehow our Kha'zix had managed to go 0/5 in jungling. Instead of flaming him or anyone else for that matter, we rallied and told him to play safer. He shaped up quickly and in the end he went 11/7 and we won. Clearly worth it to flame anyone.

Now I also managed to do the retake on my Structured Expressions1 exam and I have a good feeling about it, even if some of the adverbials were rather confusing and difficult to find and Finite and Non-Finite verbs were never my strong suit. By the way, if you're having a bad day or a bad start to a day; I must recommend listening to Pharrel Williams' "Happy".  Works wonders on one's mood.

Interesting... I actually enjoy writing about fairly random things. I mean, I thought to have an actual topic to write about but this seems to work just fine. I think I'll attempt to do some two entries each day for starters. Might lower it a bit though once the deadlines start approaching...

Flaming?

Somehow....

I really do not understand what is wrong with people. Why do people have to 'flame' and whine and make someone feel like shit if they have a bad game or if they do badly in something in general? Does it help? I'd say quite the opposite.

So what does it do then? Does it make one feel better about oneself to blame things on others? Is it truly to boost one's self-esteem to bash others down for their mistakes? Am I mistaken in recalling that this very same behaviour is linked with the 'disease' called 'narcissism' ?

In other words if you do not consider yourself a narcissistic personality and you find someone failing at something, don't go bitching at him/her about it. It doesn't help. Besides if it's a game or such and this person is in your team, it hardly helps that you attack him/her. All you do is make him/her feel crap and play worse or do whatever she/he was doing - WORSE than before. You want to win, right? Don't make it worse. Think about it.

A very wise friend of mine once said: "If you want to get better, blame every loss on yourself."

Another point of view: if it is a teamgame. Then it rarely is just one person who is doing something wrong and even more often you yourself can actually do something about what is going wrong. So you can improve and this applies to teamwork as well. You can improve teamwork by gently commanding, encouraging and rallying OR you can destroy it completely by flaming and being a dick about it. And if it doesn't work; at least you tried. Even so you'd have improved your own game and done everything you could.

This ought to be especially for the people who play League of Legends and flame.

The Beginning

Hey,

I don't have a clue as to how to start these blog things. I just decided it is time for me to practice my English writing skills at least once a week. Whether this is the best way of doing it, I don't know.

Anyway, let me introduce myself. My name is Taija and I'm from Finland. I'd like to become an author someday, much like David Gemmell and Jacqueline Carey; the authors I idolize. English language is my passion in every form and has been from when I was but a child. It is an infatuation or should I say love affair that has lasted all the way to this very day and one that will go on until the day I die.

It's 9.43 in the morning on a rather gloomy Tuesday morning and I'm going to be late from class. Why do I know this in advance? Well, school started at 8 and I already missed the multi-culture lectures and these Swedish lessons do not tempt me all that much. Probably because I haven't yet learnt anything new from them. Also, frankly put, I'm exhausted. I don't know why exactly. Just that I am. Likely it is because I have an awful week ahead; two exams and I cannot do badly in either if I wish to have a good chance at getting a slot from the University of Vaasa.

We'll see what I'll end up writing about.... I did always think of blogging like writing a public diary. Anyways......... I chose to name mine Waylander in honour of David Gemmell, who died some years ago. It is also for the unique meaning it carries as it seeks to mean something like a stranger, foreigner and yet I always imagined it more into the "wanderer" meaning. However, by the looks of it the word is Gemmell's own creation and is probably rooted from the word "waylay", where instead of making it the noun "waylayer" Mr. Gemmell went for Waylander.

What else?  Well, I spend my days either reading heroic fantasy, writing things, playing League of Legends or reading to exams. I do try to go to gym every week but it is easier said than done. :3